commitment

sometimes it is really hard to stay committed to something...of me one of the simple things is the blog and for that i truly am sorry because i know that if i planned out my day better i most certainly would find a few moments to write about how i am feeling.  but then there are moments where it is really hard to put what you are feeling into words...except for confusion or frustration.  there are always so many blessings in my life that it is overwhelming and then on the other hand there are still times where i don't seem to know where i am going or why i have changed my direction.  but i have noticed that in those times if i pause and take a deep breath and say a prayer i just have this overwhelming feeling of the fact that i am indeed on the right path and that i am not alone in any sense of the word.  God is always with me and it's amazing how many people come in and out of my life that touch me in ways that i cannot even explain, while i have trouble with myself because of my constant trying to please everyone and make everyone happy i neglect to realize the beauty the is around me and the small things that truly matter, there is no way that i can make everyone happy and care for myself at the same time but i have now realized that caring for myself and my family is number one and that if i am happy and at peace i am always able to help other people smile, which is amazing.