butterflies

today is going to be a long day.  i have work at the bakery from noon till seven and then we have a front of house meeting at seven fifteen till about eight.  all the while i will be nervous for a couple of reasons, and obviously being nervous is usually described as having butterflies in your stomach: one, tomorrow is my transfer orientation day for my new school, college of notre dame.  i'm excited and scared and nervous haha but i know it will be great.  two, my family is redoing our basement so that my sister and i can have our own rooms so the renovated basement will be mine yaay!  and hopefully my dad is going to paint some more today aka definite butterflies.  three, i am confused as to if i like having two jobs or not because i never have a chance to go out or hangout with friends, and sadly i have lost touch with some of them.  : / humph.  oh well, i guess i will just have to keep my chin up and know that being with my family and making money to pay for the classes that i want to take is all worth it.  ahhh and a fourth reason i'm nervous, is that i have to ask for another day off, on july 8th, to run a meeting for the volunteers i have gathered to run the bible camp that my church does every summer, i get to help direct it now, which is super exciting, i'm the director of youth volunteers and music.  two things that i love! 
i will leave you all with a quote 'when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you achieve it' - paulo coelho

sweet goodness

it has been WAYYYY to long since i posted.  i am finally figuring out my schedule and i feel horrible about not blogging, i always seem so much better about myself when i write down my feelings and about my day haha!  but, although i have not been keeping up with blogging i have been keeping up with yoga, i am proud and it is amazing how much better my body feels.  to anyone considering trying it, DO IT!  you may be sore after the first few times but trust me it truly makes you feel more centred and at peace.  also, i love the bakery, Atwater's, is amazing and everyone there is so welcoming plussss all of the bread and baked goods are epic.  im eating some cherry chocolate bread as i type : ) i now know how to pull an espresso shot almost perfectly, yaay! 
i am still rewatching all of the episodes of Bones on netflix since the new season wont come out on dvd till the fall, but i think i'm going to start watching weeds like eva mentioned, thanks girl!  and i seem to love abc family haha my sister and i watch secret life whenever it's on and i am considering watching pretty little liars, but we will see.
right now i'm watching another cinderella story on abc family, and i'm about to paint my nails again, this time a beautiful deep purple color, i sadly dont know the cute name for it is just a sample and it doesnt have the name on the bottom, by opi and i'll catch up on what notebookdoodles has blogged since i've been offline.  i hope everyones evening is just lovely <3

centered

wow, i have been crazy busy.  but in a good way i guess.  i had quite a day at the bakery yesterday, we hosted a meeting of the chamber of commerce and there was just a lot of running around.  it was fun though haha watching all of the members tour the shop holding their wine glasses.  oh, i started doing yoga regularly again, aka i started yesterday and i did it again this morning, hopefully i keep it up seeing as i feel a lot more at center and not as tired.  alright, well i hope everyone has a great day i'm going to head off to work cause i have to be there at eleven instead of my normal noon. 

you set me free, you're all i need

sigh, i feel so very at peace.  it a rare but lovely feeling and i have many people to thank for it.  well of course my family, especially my sister, her bff meg, my best friend sam, and a few good friends who i haven't heard from in a while and hearing from them, well, i couldn't help but smile.  also, like i said before, i have a set schedule for the bakery and the candy store, which is amazing, and i'm going on a family vacation with my all of my cousins.  and i have a wedding this weekend, which is going to be wonderful and the bride is just so beautiful and such a sweetheart, and her brother asked me to be his date, and i am sooooo excited. 
also, i am just in love with this series called Bones, i just finished up watching the 4th season like two weeks ago with my sister and now we are rewatching everything.  the 5th season just ended on tv and won't be on netflix for a while, but i'm looking forward to it haha.  alright well i'm going to peace and possibly go out to dinner or something hmmmm, i have off tomorrow from both jobs so i can do whatever i want yaay, just like i finally got to paint my nails today, i used the opi color you don't know jacques, the matte kind!

smile

well, sorry for being super emo haha i have been crazy busy at the bakery, which is awesome, and super sleepy so i tend to nap as much as i can.  but i really do wish i could have posted everyday.  so, here is an update.  my brothers graduation, was AWESOME haha or well it was super long but worth it because it was so funny.  second, i totally got everything figured out with my job at the candy box, which is awesome!!  yaay.  then the fam and i watched star trek, aka one freaking amazing movie seeing as star trek in general is amazing.  well, i'm going to peace cause my brother and i are now watching transformers 2 so i'll be back later :)  hope everyone had a lovely weekend!

and again.

this sucks.  i was supposed to have a good day off of work and of course, i did not.  all i did was run errands for other people who didn't even say thank you.  awesome right...not.  well i'm going to try to take a nap before my brothers 8th grade graduation and having to put up with my family some more.  i just wanted to make sure to post something because well at least i will be true to the promise to myself to try to post every day. 

played

don't you just hate it when you get led on and played by life and people in it?  yea i do.  so it seems that i got played by my first job because i told them i got a second job so that i could afford to pay for my college classes ya know i kinda need money and one part time job just doesn't cut it.  well my boss flipped out and hung up on me and then had the audacity to put an add on craig's list to find more help.  one that offends me cause i didn't quit and two does she really think she will get people who care about the store and its well being from craig's list??? noooo.  so she finally called me back yesterday and it was just frustrating because i get the feeling that she still has no idea how to run a store. *sighhh* well hopefully i will be able to talk to her again tonight and she will just have to deal with the shifts i can work because i am not going to hurt my reputation at the bakery because i really like it there and i get paid better and well i actually get paid...so that's important.

anddddd i truly dislike men.  two of my guy friends like to be all flirty with me and normally disregard it but they were seeming quite serious this time and well one i totally just kinda laughed off cause he has done this before and flirted with me and then not talked to me at all for like weeks.  so that's just like whatever.  but then the other guy, who is like one of my best friends ya know talked to me about everything and he was truly serious, or well i thought he was.  but he keeps going to be with his ex girlfriend and going out with her and going to visit her and she just shows up at his house.  it annoys me cause i always seem to get played and gahhhh i'm just annoyed.  this guy will keep trying to get me to hangout and go out and stuff but then when i say i can or even when i just want to stop over his house he says no or never answers and come to find out its cause he is with his ex.  blahhhhh.  i'm so done with all of this frustration.

june bug

wow.  i cannot even believe that it is june.  this is crazy!  this weekend was actually quite fun.  i got to hangout with the family and our cousin eva came down, it's always a lovely time with her ; )  haha.  well, some annoying stuff happened as well but hopefully i will resolve it by tonight.  blahhhh well i have lots going on and my mind is racing, the cleaning of the basement which is soon to be my room is coming along swimmingly well so hopefully in two weeks-ish i will have my own room!  yaay!  and i have to go to work at the bakery today at 3.  my brother is at hershey park today with his class and his graduation is on thursday, insane!!! and my sister has finals at the end of this week and beginning of next.  so soon everyone will be on summer vacation, and i can't wait : ) i have soooo many fun plans.  i'll have to post my to-do list, its quite amusing actually.  alrightyyyy well, i'm going to make some lunch and watch Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince, seeing as i kinda just want to quit life and become a wizard and go to Hogwarts haha, but seriously.