relief

i wrote one of my many essays that are due that the beginning of next week in two hours yaay!  now i just have to research more for two of the others and then write them by mondayyyy.  should be fun haha so i just made some mocha starbucks coffee and am eating some delicious biscotti that my friend amy made at work and am beginning to research some more.  all the while watching gossip girl obviously, i just caught myself up with last mondays episode and am re watching every episode starting with the pilot :) i love gg oh so much, blaire is my idol, i love her and especially her fashion.  and, although i thought this weekend was going to be uber stressful and no fun at all, but since i woke up this morning things have really been looking up.  i did really well on my spanish test and i found someone to fill in for me at work on sunday so i can fully devote myself to my all important psychology research essay.  so instead of having classes all day today, and then going to a concert tonight (tenth avenue north, matt maher, and addison road!!!) which is a very good thing, but then working at five thirty tomorrow morning till late afternoon and then running a youth meeting on sunday and then going into work for the rest of the day after that, with no time to work on my essay, now i dont have to go into work on sunday and i am soooo thankful that carolyn can fill in for me, sigh, i am most certainly relieved.  nowwww of to research land haha <3

time

wow, a whole month has gotten by me.  this is not good...and really needs to change.  not only have i been neglecting blogging but i have neglected yoga and eating healthy.  fail.  well its a new month soooo i am once again starting anew.  yaay, so from now on i will have a real to-do list and actually be able to check things off of said list and feel better about everything.  i have so many papers due this coming week and it is going to be stressful but i know that if i stick to my principals and get my research done i will do fine, as well as doing yoga, because that will def help me control my stress level and lessen my body aching all the time.  sooo here i goooo off to do lost of fun things with research.  hmmm maybe this month i will look back at all of the fun activities that i have done this year !! <3

ftw (for the win)

have you ever had one of those moments where you truly feel like you are doing exactly what you are supposed to be doing, in the right place with the right people, striving for the right outcome?  i have that feeling right now.  i have not felt this happy in quite some time and it truly is amazing.  i am so blessed to be able to live this life, i have amazing friends an unbelievable new bff and a family that kicks butt and i am so proud to be a part of.  well, i should get to sleep, i have work at the bakery all day tomorrow and im going apple picking with the fam on sunday hopefully!!  ps im currently watching hp6, which i believe i have watched about four times in the span of the last six days haha, what can i say, i am mildly obsessed and have been since the first book came out when i was in middleschool.

shine

i feel like wednesdays are always the most difficult day of the week especially since i have so much on my plate when i wake up in the morning to accomplish that day, and obviously late into the night.  on the very bright and shiny side, i just finished my lit paper with hp6 on in the background...  and i must confess, i am obsessed with harry potter.  and will marry ron weasley because he is my soulmate <3 haha, sighhhh.  well i am going to drift off to sleep as i listen to the cast of the sixth movie.  tomorrow is going to be a funnnn day, i have lots of cool things planned with my new dearest psychology friend and possibly twin including kittens baking and story writing and most likely harry potter!  yaay! 
ps lately when i have been telling people that i love them i have been saying that they make my heart shine, i think it is a interesting and fun expression, hence the title of the post being 'shine'  and it being a killer plain white tees song haha

woahh

it is super late and i totally should be asleep but time always seems to slip away from me...especially on tuesdays.  i guess that's cause wednesdays are always my most hectic and long day of the entire freaking week!  gahhh i have class all morning and then work all afternoon at the bakery till seven and then we have a staff meeting that takes quite a bit of time...alas, i should be heading of to dream land noww. especially since one of the plethora of assignments requires me to record my dreams to help me write a personal myth...hmmm sooo sleeping can kinda be my homework for that class, sounds like a win to me.  well first lets check that homework of my monstrous todo list and head to bed! 

once more

i always seem to be slacking on keeping up with the list of things i try to accomplish daily, blogging being the top one that gets neglected.  but i have realized in the twenty days between my last post and today has been quite a bit.  one, that self confidence is oh so very important, not in a cocky self centered way, but self confidence in the way that you realize you can accomplish and achieve what you set your mind too, for if you don't believe in yourself you won't further yourself nor will you be able to help anyone else in the life that you are leading.  two, smile and laugh even if you are sad of frustrated, it will always make you feel better.  three, breath, don't take everything that is said to you personally, some people have a hard time realizing that it is so easy to hurt people and especially in society today with all of the instant communication and contact it seems to be happen all the time.  and like my mom and lots of themes of retreats say, let go and let God, i have not heard any truer words spoken, for with God any and all things are possible. 
i will be better about blogging more often than every twenty days haha, like i have said many times before it really does help me when i write


currently watching: across the universe (love this movie)

ps - im thinking of joining my local ymca, and im not sure if it will be worth it money and time wise that is, hmmm i really think im going to do it because it will help with my keeping active and ill have the bonus of real lead yoga classes and not dvds in my room

begin anew

so i began to write this post a while back and life got so hectic that for a moment i forgot how to breathe.  so here goes, a new school year means a new beginning and the ability to reevaluate your lifeeeee.  which is pretty cool and something that i am looking forward too.  i am just about to start my second week at my new college, soon to be a university yaay!  and i truly am loving every minute of it.  i love living at home and being around my family, especially since gee (that's what i call my grandfather, i never remember calling him anything else and i really like the name gee because i have never heard anyone else call their grandfather gee before, it's unique) is probably leaving us soon, he has been sick and not fairing well but has lived an amazing life.  and i love being with my sister all the time, it really is great.  and what is even cooler, is my gpa starts over entirely which means i could graduate with a 4.0 which would be epic!  haha but besides that i love the classes i love the people in my classes and my professors and i just love how beautiful the campus is. sighhh, it's awesome to be able to see that while there have been moments in your life where mistakes have been made, that everything works toward the greater goal of life, and i know that i am exactly where i am supposed to be and that is amazing.  and to make a long story short, i have amazing friends, great guys in my life, a supportive family and school, and the determination to excel in all that i do.  i am lucky enough to have an excellent place to work and to even have an internship like position with something that i am extremely passionate about and i just feel so blessed to be alive and able to help others.
alright, i am finally going to get some rest after such a long day but, i will most certainly be blogging more often for even now i feel so much lighter and at peace.

commitment

sometimes it is really hard to stay committed to something...of me one of the simple things is the blog and for that i truly am sorry because i know that if i planned out my day better i most certainly would find a few moments to write about how i am feeling.  but then there are moments where it is really hard to put what you are feeling into words...except for confusion or frustration.  there are always so many blessings in my life that it is overwhelming and then on the other hand there are still times where i don't seem to know where i am going or why i have changed my direction.  but i have noticed that in those times if i pause and take a deep breath and say a prayer i just have this overwhelming feeling of the fact that i am indeed on the right path and that i am not alone in any sense of the word.  God is always with me and it's amazing how many people come in and out of my life that touch me in ways that i cannot even explain, while i have trouble with myself because of my constant trying to please everyone and make everyone happy i neglect to realize the beauty the is around me and the small things that truly matter, there is no way that i can make everyone happy and care for myself at the same time but i have now realized that caring for myself and my family is number one and that if i am happy and at peace i am always able to help other people smile, which is amazing. 

love life.

love life and it will love you back!  truer words have never been spoken.  if you love life and love yourself then there is on reason for you not to be loving the life that you are living.  i haven't posted in a while because so much has been happening in my life.  right as i started getting used to my schedule it started changing again haha, isn't that how it always happens, once you fall into a pattern it changes up on you.  but, these changes are all very good.  i have resigned my position at the candy store just because it was to hard to keep up working at the candy store and at the bakery and then sleeping.  it was kinda crazy.  so now i will only be at the bakery and that will most certainly help the social aspect of life and the whole being able to sleep whatnot. 
so, new train of thought, i love all of the people that i have in my life right now, i honestly don't know what i would do or who i would be without my friends.  i love them all so much.  :)
andddd another thought, this week i have been the youth volunteer coordinator for my parishes vacation bible school and it has been amazing.  it just increases my desire and love to be a youth minister or campus minister...its so amazing.
ohhh and i get to go on vacation soon woohoo, its going to be great my entire family is going along with my cousins and everyone.  yaay!  so now i have to go find a new bathing suit, soooo peace out!

butterflies

today is going to be a long day.  i have work at the bakery from noon till seven and then we have a front of house meeting at seven fifteen till about eight.  all the while i will be nervous for a couple of reasons, and obviously being nervous is usually described as having butterflies in your stomach: one, tomorrow is my transfer orientation day for my new school, college of notre dame.  i'm excited and scared and nervous haha but i know it will be great.  two, my family is redoing our basement so that my sister and i can have our own rooms so the renovated basement will be mine yaay!  and hopefully my dad is going to paint some more today aka definite butterflies.  three, i am confused as to if i like having two jobs or not because i never have a chance to go out or hangout with friends, and sadly i have lost touch with some of them.  : / humph.  oh well, i guess i will just have to keep my chin up and know that being with my family and making money to pay for the classes that i want to take is all worth it.  ahhh and a fourth reason i'm nervous, is that i have to ask for another day off, on july 8th, to run a meeting for the volunteers i have gathered to run the bible camp that my church does every summer, i get to help direct it now, which is super exciting, i'm the director of youth volunteers and music.  two things that i love! 
i will leave you all with a quote 'when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you achieve it' - paulo coelho

sweet goodness

it has been WAYYYY to long since i posted.  i am finally figuring out my schedule and i feel horrible about not blogging, i always seem so much better about myself when i write down my feelings and about my day haha!  but, although i have not been keeping up with blogging i have been keeping up with yoga, i am proud and it is amazing how much better my body feels.  to anyone considering trying it, DO IT!  you may be sore after the first few times but trust me it truly makes you feel more centred and at peace.  also, i love the bakery, Atwater's, is amazing and everyone there is so welcoming plussss all of the bread and baked goods are epic.  im eating some cherry chocolate bread as i type : ) i now know how to pull an espresso shot almost perfectly, yaay! 
i am still rewatching all of the episodes of Bones on netflix since the new season wont come out on dvd till the fall, but i think i'm going to start watching weeds like eva mentioned, thanks girl!  and i seem to love abc family haha my sister and i watch secret life whenever it's on and i am considering watching pretty little liars, but we will see.
right now i'm watching another cinderella story on abc family, and i'm about to paint my nails again, this time a beautiful deep purple color, i sadly dont know the cute name for it is just a sample and it doesnt have the name on the bottom, by opi and i'll catch up on what notebookdoodles has blogged since i've been offline.  i hope everyones evening is just lovely <3

centered

wow, i have been crazy busy.  but in a good way i guess.  i had quite a day at the bakery yesterday, we hosted a meeting of the chamber of commerce and there was just a lot of running around.  it was fun though haha watching all of the members tour the shop holding their wine glasses.  oh, i started doing yoga regularly again, aka i started yesterday and i did it again this morning, hopefully i keep it up seeing as i feel a lot more at center and not as tired.  alright, well i hope everyone has a great day i'm going to head off to work cause i have to be there at eleven instead of my normal noon. 

you set me free, you're all i need

sigh, i feel so very at peace.  it a rare but lovely feeling and i have many people to thank for it.  well of course my family, especially my sister, her bff meg, my best friend sam, and a few good friends who i haven't heard from in a while and hearing from them, well, i couldn't help but smile.  also, like i said before, i have a set schedule for the bakery and the candy store, which is amazing, and i'm going on a family vacation with my all of my cousins.  and i have a wedding this weekend, which is going to be wonderful and the bride is just so beautiful and such a sweetheart, and her brother asked me to be his date, and i am sooooo excited. 
also, i am just in love with this series called Bones, i just finished up watching the 4th season like two weeks ago with my sister and now we are rewatching everything.  the 5th season just ended on tv and won't be on netflix for a while, but i'm looking forward to it haha.  alright well i'm going to peace and possibly go out to dinner or something hmmmm, i have off tomorrow from both jobs so i can do whatever i want yaay, just like i finally got to paint my nails today, i used the opi color you don't know jacques, the matte kind!

smile

well, sorry for being super emo haha i have been crazy busy at the bakery, which is awesome, and super sleepy so i tend to nap as much as i can.  but i really do wish i could have posted everyday.  so, here is an update.  my brothers graduation, was AWESOME haha or well it was super long but worth it because it was so funny.  second, i totally got everything figured out with my job at the candy box, which is awesome!!  yaay.  then the fam and i watched star trek, aka one freaking amazing movie seeing as star trek in general is amazing.  well, i'm going to peace cause my brother and i are now watching transformers 2 so i'll be back later :)  hope everyone had a lovely weekend!

and again.

this sucks.  i was supposed to have a good day off of work and of course, i did not.  all i did was run errands for other people who didn't even say thank you.  awesome right...not.  well i'm going to try to take a nap before my brothers 8th grade graduation and having to put up with my family some more.  i just wanted to make sure to post something because well at least i will be true to the promise to myself to try to post every day. 

played

don't you just hate it when you get led on and played by life and people in it?  yea i do.  so it seems that i got played by my first job because i told them i got a second job so that i could afford to pay for my college classes ya know i kinda need money and one part time job just doesn't cut it.  well my boss flipped out and hung up on me and then had the audacity to put an add on craig's list to find more help.  one that offends me cause i didn't quit and two does she really think she will get people who care about the store and its well being from craig's list??? noooo.  so she finally called me back yesterday and it was just frustrating because i get the feeling that she still has no idea how to run a store. *sighhh* well hopefully i will be able to talk to her again tonight and she will just have to deal with the shifts i can work because i am not going to hurt my reputation at the bakery because i really like it there and i get paid better and well i actually get paid...so that's important.

anddddd i truly dislike men.  two of my guy friends like to be all flirty with me and normally disregard it but they were seeming quite serious this time and well one i totally just kinda laughed off cause he has done this before and flirted with me and then not talked to me at all for like weeks.  so that's just like whatever.  but then the other guy, who is like one of my best friends ya know talked to me about everything and he was truly serious, or well i thought he was.  but he keeps going to be with his ex girlfriend and going out with her and going to visit her and she just shows up at his house.  it annoys me cause i always seem to get played and gahhhh i'm just annoyed.  this guy will keep trying to get me to hangout and go out and stuff but then when i say i can or even when i just want to stop over his house he says no or never answers and come to find out its cause he is with his ex.  blahhhhh.  i'm so done with all of this frustration.

june bug

wow.  i cannot even believe that it is june.  this is crazy!  this weekend was actually quite fun.  i got to hangout with the family and our cousin eva came down, it's always a lovely time with her ; )  haha.  well, some annoying stuff happened as well but hopefully i will resolve it by tonight.  blahhhh well i have lots going on and my mind is racing, the cleaning of the basement which is soon to be my room is coming along swimmingly well so hopefully in two weeks-ish i will have my own room!  yaay!  and i have to go to work at the bakery today at 3.  my brother is at hershey park today with his class and his graduation is on thursday, insane!!! and my sister has finals at the end of this week and beginning of next.  so soon everyone will be on summer vacation, and i can't wait : ) i have soooo many fun plans.  i'll have to post my to-do list, its quite amusing actually.  alrightyyyy well, i'm going to make some lunch and watch Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince, seeing as i kinda just want to quit life and become a wizard and go to Hogwarts haha, but seriously.

breathe

...sometimes that is the hardest thing to do, breathe.  i seem to be very nervous and on edge for some reason, i have been since last night...it's really weird.  i mean i was up pretty late, which isn't normal, cause i wanted to finish the book i was reading, At First Sight by Nicholas Sparks.  i love him and his writing, he always makes me cry, so maybe thats why im freakin out.  idk haha it may be because i got the job at Atwater's and today, friday and saturday i have more training days, and i know that i shouldn't be nervous but i am. gahhhh.  so i am trying to just breathe but sometimes i have to remember to take a deep breath and let go of the nerves.  sigh, everything with life just seems so scary and out of my hands.  and well i know that i can't control everything but yea, im still worrying.  maybe this is just a sign that i need to keep up with my yoga again, i would always feel better and at peace after.  hmmmm i will make sure to make time for it again.  alright well i have to be at the bakery at one so i'm going to go make some lunch and head out!  wish me luck haha

workworkwork

so i missed posting yesterday but it was for a good reason, seeing as i had been up since 5am and working in the bread shop where i applied for my second job.  it's called Atwater's...i had a working interview and it was soooo intense.  but, i think it went really well and i will find out if i get the job by friday, at least that's what the manager told me haha.  and it is weird to say that it's not my favorite job, cause it is really fun, but i like the Candy Box better.  i guess it's kinda like my baby, i have known that store forever and now i'm making it even better.  i actually need to go get some flowers to plant in the boxes outside to give it some better curb appeal ya know. 

piece of random information: this year the bra turns 100 years old hahaa

relax...take it easyyy

summer is a time to relax and enjoy being alive. but, sometimes i feel a tad mmm worthless, i guess is a good word, if i'm not working towards something or if i don't have anything to do. so, tomorrow i have my working interview at a bakery close by my house...which is going to be amazing. the only damper may be the having to be there at 6am. but it is a lovely environment and that is what makes it worth getting up early.

once again i am going to try and uphold the promise i made myself to blog everyday soooo i'm going to try my best. maybe ill post my summer 2010 to do list soon :) and add to is as it grows haha.

ps - the picture is one of my favorites that i took over my family vacation last summer at Wildwood in New Jersey, it was a great trip! copyright KaCo

finally summer!

i am finally home :) it feels soooo nice to be able to relax and breathe. finals are finished and now i am just finishing another draft of my psychology project that i need to turn in by tonight and then im completely finished with school. actually i'll be totally finished with everything at the Mount which will be great. i'm not going back in the fall, i decided to transfer to a school closer to my home and will get to live in my basement. well, once we actually get the basement fixed up of course which is what my fam and i have been doing all weekend and i mean allllll weekend. but it's totally worth is seeing as i will finally get my own room for the first time since i can remember. well, i guess i should get some more research for my paper and then head off to Panera with a classmate to set up our papers in APA style woohoo. have a fabulous day!!

stresssss

alrightttt well i am sitting behind the circulaiton desk at the library stuck here at work until ten tonight and i have already been here for an hour...blahhhhh. i have soooo much work that i need to finish for tomorrow and it legit is killing me. sleep is for the weak and i haven't really gotten sleep in like two dayssss. life is stressful and i just want it to be summer. but, life will be much better once tomorrow is over, i will have finished my philosophy term paper and last chapter outline andddd have turned in my psych studys introduction and methods section, which is carzy and amazing all at once. ok im gonna peace out and most likely try to get crackin on some of my work.

...in class

alright so i probably shouldn't be doing this but the fact that i shouldn't has never stopped me before haha sooooo i am sitting in my christian thought circa 1500s class and obviously not paying attention. i legit don't even know what we are talking about which is mostlikely a bad thing seeing as i have a ten page paper due in this class on friday. blahhhh. so the person who is talking has been this character who has been sitting in on our class for the lik past month and he isn't even in this class at allllll. why he is speaking and trying to teach the class is beyond me. hmmmm well i think the only thing getting me through the week and getting me to actually write the paper is that fact that i am going to see my Orioles play on friday yaay! sigh, the professor is looking at me weird, i will post again later when i am sure i will be procrastinating.

well i certainly had an interesting weekend. my roomies and i had a lovely time at our spring dance and looked beautiful haha anddddd i got to go see Phantom of the Opera with my mom and my sister yesterday. i just loveeeeee Phantom :) when i was little and wouldn't be able to fall asleep my dad would turn on andrew lloyd webber music and dance around with me, aka i will always love andrew lloyd webber. and nowwww this week is going to be crazy, i have like two ten page papers due on friday and i feel as if there will be noooo sleep this week whatsoever. blahhhhhh, well i'm going to get some work done. and maybe i will no procrastinate to much and lessen my stress and gain some sleep haha.

*head**desk*

so i have decided that i totally suck at keeping up with things and with life in general. so i now am going to make sure that i keep on top of life and the things that i believe are important, like managing time and school work and relationships and speaking my mind on the blog of course. ok, well last week and this whole past month was super crazy busy. i finished and turned in and presented to of my big semester projects which is a m a zing. and this week i am trying to write down copious amounts of information for three research projects that i have due at the end of the month. i am confident i can get everything done in due time though : D
*sigh* like i have said before i have had lots of changes going on in my life which are awesome and scary and i kinda love it haha which is good seeing as it is my life so i should be loving every minute of it, i mean no one gets out alive right lol. alright well i am going to clean off my desk and get down to business and start crackin on this work that i have.

music is love

this week has been so crazy, yet i loved it. i have been going to mass in the beautiful chapel that is two floors below my suite and it well i think that's why i have enjoyed this week so much. i can't believe its thursday...but i am happy that it is because i'm going home this weekend. yes yes i know i just funished spring break a week ago but still, i'm going home haha. hopefully my weekend will involve taking my sister prom dress shopping and going to ikea and drinking delicious tea (although i have delicious tea everyday everything just seems to taste better at home) and hanging with my friends from home. plus, my dad has surgery yesterday and i want to see him. sighhh, but one of the things i always have missed this school year when i go home is the boys that live in the suit below me (above the previously mentioned chapel). the play their guitars and drums and sing all the time and it makes my day. recently they have been perfecting the song "The General" by Dispatch...sooo here you go! it's not my boys singing it though, it is Dispatch : D http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q3JjlkfX5Gk

...back at school

sooooo, i have been sooo busy and it actually has been awesome and somewhat annoying all at the same time. i love the classes i'm taking and everything but the work that i have is getting kinda out of hand...thats the annoying part. the awesome part was the bangin birthday weekend for one of my best friends and the fact that my end to spring break was perfect cause i finally got to hangout with my cousins. ohhh and i am writing this post from my desk at school...wishing i was sitting where the above picture was taken...in my family room, what a perfect day, gossip girl (the season starts again tonight!!! woohoo) my amazing trader joe's chocolate, and a lovely venti passion shaken icedtea lemonade : D when i was on break i went on a cooking kick as well, i made guacamole for the first time and it turned out fabulously and i made oreo bombs. andddd another awesome thing that happened over break was that Rita's opened for the season! (see other picture) i got a gelati with vanilla custard and georgia peach ice it wassss perfect. sighhh well i have to peace because i have reading to do and a retreat meeting and mass tonight!

( goodmorning )

so i really regret not posting yesterday but drama kinda exploded in my face. it is a longggg story and i'm still trying to understand everything soooo i have a feeling i will be posting again later (plus tonight is the office when pam is supposed to have her baby!!! so i will most certainly want to talk about it). back to my point... here is what i should have posted before drama drama drama came to be haha. the first picture is of the beautiful flowers my mom and i got a trader joe's which are on our counter now still :) the second picture is of the mango lose leaf tea which i made yesterday for the first time, it was delicious! (tea may or may not be one of my little obsessions in life lol)

home is wonderful

so today i have been busy but then again it has been more like just being busy with enjoying my time home. yep i'm on 'spring break' now haha even though it is cold and there is a chance of snowy weather. but, that ok :) i just really like being home after being constantly stressed at school. i've been working on my research projects and i painted my nails too! the color i used is suzi skis in the pyrenees and its in the OPI suede collection, i will have to put up a picture of it later they look great, andddddd i got to go to one of my favorite stores, trader joe's woohoo. i got some beautiful iris' for my dorm and i got dark chocolate covered pomegranate seeds and dark chocolate covered blueberries, amazing. well, i have to run because i have lots and lots of articles to read and i'm hopefully going to the movies tonight with a good friend.

hope everyone has had a terrific tuesday! ps i'm looking forward to posting pictures in the very near future :D

the closing of the 2010 olympics

i'm always a little depressed when the olympics end. i alwyas enjoy watching them and when the are over i just don't really know what else to do haha but while a was watching the closing ceremony yesterday i was more depressed then usual. i normally love what the home country does of the ending of the olympics but i was not 'wowed' last night at all... i think the one thing that was done right was having michael buble sing. he is just so dreamy and his voice may or may not make my heart melt. thats all :)

my first post :D

well hi! so, i've been contemplating starting a blog for quite some time and today i thought *why not go for it* haha. ever since i was little i was told that "march comes in like a lion and out like a lamb". since i hope to be making changes in my life and become more of who i am supposed to be, starting the first day of march seems like a good decision... because hopefully as the saying goes march will go out like a lamb, and changes will have been made and my new 'habits' will be second nature!

since i am just starting i know i will be playing with settings and whatnot so hopefully i will find what i like soon, but i am quite indecisive so i guess we will just have to wait and see lol